Well, if you would have told me that I would be an intuitive medium who can talks (talk) to dead people and spirit guides, I would have thought you were INSANE. Turns out that is exactly where my journey took me! It has been a very long and layered pathway to get here, but I am BEYOND grateful for how it all happened. This journey has truly shown me that if you follow the signs it will lead you to your purpose. So buckle up and hold on tight for my ride from Physical Therapist to “I see dead people!”
I knew at a very young age that I wanted to be a physical therapist….like, I am talking 10-12 years old. Mostly, I wanted to be a PT because of this calling to HEAL people who were hurting…the creative and active side of it was also a perk.
Fast forward to practicing as a PT for 2 years. I was 27 and I had a huge identity crisis… cough cough Saturn Return! … cough cough. If you don’t know what Saturn Return is, I will chat about it one day.
I had done all the things on my “life check list” and now I was working at a “good job” and felt like there wasstill something more for me out there. And that is the phrase that I would repeat over and over for the next 4-5 years… “I just know that I am meant to do more…BUT, I just don’t know what it is.”
Don’t get me wrong, I was happy to work with my patients, and I loved helping others recover from their injuries. I soaked up all the quality time with my patients and truly enjoyed hearing their story stories. I loved hearing all their stories and I noticed that many people would spill deep intimate situations or problems going on in their lives. As a PT, You are not only there “PHYSICAL” therapist but also their “Emotional/mental“ therapist. Anyway…it was during this time that the beginnings of my “gifts” became apparent. For example, I started to experience pain or injuries similar to my patients. They would walk in and I would just instinctivelyknow exactly where they were having pain. Or I would be working on someone and as soon as they s said their symptoms lessened I would start to feel their pain exactly where they had it. As if I ABSORBED IT. Only later did I learn- that is EXACTLY what was happening. Super fun! It was the beginning of understanding that I am an empathetic and clairsentient person.
The more I worked as a PT the more I knew that there was something else for me. So I searched…. And I started to feel depressed. I spent my whole life thinking that graduating with a Doctorate in PT would be my dream, and now I was DOUBTING it. How could I tell my mom and dad that this isn’t what I wanted to be anymore? YIKES!
The way I dealt with this empty void was to control my feelings with my “best friend” ED…aka eating disorder. It’s More like the cool friend that your mom didn’t like because she knew they were a “ trouble-maker” and to “ be careful.” Your response was always to deny by yelling back “MOM, you don’t know what you’re even talking about! You don’t even know them!” As it turns out, your mom was always right.
I am not going to go into detail about my eating disorder because that could be a whole novel.
But thankfully, I am now in recovery which I worked very hard to be. And I could thank so many people and friends who supported me get to this place that I am now. Shout out to Jess Baumgardner and my therapist Brittany. With professional help, I was able to decipher the voice of ED vs my own which allowed me to not fear or misuse food. Also, as this ED voice began to vanish, a new voice came through…but we aren’t there quite yet!
It was then that I decided that the solution to my life purpose problem was to become a workout instructor as my side hustle. I loved working out. It was my outlet for stress, so why not? So I signed up for yoga teacher training. Little did I know that this would JUMP START me towards spiritual awakening. YTT taught me how to listen, feel, and be in my body. It helped me crowd out the noise in my head and tap into what my body/soul really was asking for. During one teacher training weekend (actually on my 30th bday) I woke up violently ill with the flu. I was told to stay home and rest instead of coming to YTT. It was later that day that my world came crashing down. I got a call from my mom that my grandpa, 95, had died in a car accident going to church. I know what you are thinking …How ironic! Yes, indeed. And if you knew my grandpa, you would know that this all made sense with how he left this physical world. My grandpa and I were very close. He would give me a hard time but everyone knew that I was his favorite. When I was born, he was in the hospital due to cardiac issues and they didn’t think he was going to make it. So my parents, made my middle name in honor of him. Casey “RAY”. – Again, I am going to say it louder if this whole situation doesn’t scream SATURN RETURN! I don’t know what else will, haha!
I was crushed when I received the call about my grandpa. I knew when it rang that something was wrong. I fell to my knees. It was in that moment that I knew why I needed to be home, (not in the yoga studio, to receive this call regarding my hero. Through the sobs I kept telling my husband that I just wanted to talk to my grandpa one more time. If there was a defining moment of when/how my spiritual awakening happened, I can tell you that it was the day my grandpa passed.
By pure kismet, I connected with a name for a medium. It was my FIRST ONE! It was through her reading that I was able to reconnect with my grandpa, and I was opened. She also provided me with guidance about my life’s purpose; the thing I had been so desperately searching for. She told me that I would learn three things and that I would help others with my “system”. I thought to myself…OKAY, 3 things…well I am a PT, and I am almost done with my yoga certification. GREAT! Only 1 more thing to learn. And it was then in my mind the word REIKI came to me.
I had heard about Reiki during my clinicals as a PT student, and I was always interested but never partook. Until one day my yoga mentor asked if she could give me reiki in class. UMM HELL YA! When she placed her hands on my head, my anxious/negative turbo mind went clear. It felt like the weight of my thoughts was lifted. I had an immediate calming sensation throughout my body. I also felt this odd repetition of words: “you are safe, you are loved”. After class, I sprinted up to my yoga instructor and told her all the things. She responded with what she felt and also confirmed that she was repeating those same phrases in her mind. I was dumbfounded, and all I knew is I wanted more. She recommended I try her reiki practitioner, so I eagerly booked a session!
The moment I met my reiki practitioner, I knew she was special! She sat me down and we just started chatting. I told her my story and how I got her information. She immediately said “You know you are meant to do this” (meaning Reiki), and I burst into tears when she confirmed what I already knew deep down. Mind you this all happened before actually receiving any reiki during that session. When I finally laid on her table and she placed her hands on my head, I felt the same calmness rush through my body as I did once before. On that table I experienced many things. I had tons of body sensations, but I also had VISIONS. I had a vision of my future house, and I could see the color of the walls, floors, and décor…and I also knew that we renovated it to be this way. Two weeks later, my husband surprised me bringing me to an open house on our way to our annual vacation in Vermont. I can tell you now that it INDEED was the house in my vision. And yes …we ended up renovating it exactly the way I had seen it.
I left her session and immediately searched for Reiki schools. And low and behold, level one at the reiki school that she went to was starting in two weeks. It was meant to be. It was through my 1.5 years of studying Reiki at this school that my intuitive skills became louder and harder to avoid. When I would reiki classmates, friends, and strangers I would get intuitive messages or visions that were unexplainable. But yet, they always resonated with the person. For example: I had one client that I was working on that had a lot of energy around her throat chakra. As I worked on this area, I saw a vision of her in utero and it felt traumatic. I asked her later if she had a traumatic birth and she explained that she couldn’t breathe when she was born and was in the ICU for a few days.
After this I became hungrier to better understand how to access even more messages, but didn’t know where to go. And poof! That’s when I got a call from my friend saying she won this intuitive healing session for her and a friend, and she invited me as her plus 1. I was thrilled! I went in with no expectations as I had been seeing many intuitive healers at this time. In my session the reader talked about the Akashic records. The akasha whATTA?! I had never heard of it. She explained about how the records help you connect with higher self and record keepers. The Akashic records is thought of as the belief that every person, place, and thing has a soul record. A story perhaps. And our guides or “record keepers” show us our souls path. Now, I know this seems very far out there. BUT this intrigued me! She also said that she teaches Akashic Record certification courses every once in awhile. Well, about a month later as I was drinking some wine I get an email that she is teaching another round. I am sure you can guess what happened…yup! I signed up.
The akashic record certification allowed me to really connect and strengthen my clairaudience. I learned how to decipher between my voice and voices from the Akashic Realm as well as automatic writing. Automatic writing is the process of a stream writing without conscious thought. Using this method allowed me to trust the messages I was receiving.
The first time I went into my records I saw a library filled with books from wall to wall, and my guides were the librarians. They showed me that all these books were many stories about ME. They showed all the paths taken or not taken, and past, present, and future lives. It was incredible. They told me to trust ... and that is exactly what I did. I trusted that these books/messages were truth and coming from a higher source.
Part of my homework to receive my akashic record reading certification, was that I had to read 4-5 people. I asked my closest friends who were open for a reading. Naturally, no one knew what to expect. Neither did I to be honest. I was nervous and worried. What if nothing came through?
My first reading was with my bestie! It was hard, and I was nervous, but she was patient. But what I learned is that the answers coming through were very choppy. I know now that it was because I didn’t trust and because I was working in new territory.
Each one of these first 5 readings taught me something new. I had HUGE growth during this short amount of time. Also, I got immediate confirmation which helped me trust I was on the right journey.
I know you are all like ... umm I need an example. Okay okay... here you go! During one of my readings, my good friend asked about where her career would go and what to focus on. All I kept seeing was that she needed to write a book. She laughed and wanted to know actionable steps she could take right now. I said over and over “all I see is you writing a book and you being on stage, kinda like Gabby Bernstein“. She belly laughed this time! I felt anxious after our session, like I had failed. I felt like I had Failed her.
I asked my guides for a sign, or For confirmation that I am meant to do this work. I was basically saying “is This REAL? Or am I making this sh*t up?“
Low and behold, my friend text me the next day. She was at a retreat and was at breakfast trying to have some alone time. She is a mother of 3, so you moms out there know how much alone time is precious. Anyway , someone sat next to her. They started chatting. The girl told her that my friend reminded her of Gabby Bernstein, and that she had experience with book editing. My friend had got chills. They are now working together on her book! 😉
Soo as you can see, this has been a very long journey to become an intuitive medium.
I have also been scared to come out and say it. But here I am. Standing here (with my guides by my side) and stepping into who I am.
Hello 👋🏻 I am Casey Ray and I am an intuitive medium 💚✨